Ten Reasons Losing Weight Sucks

10.) My clothes don’t fit and it’s irreversible. (If I want to continue getting healthy.)

9.) I no longer get to eat the good/ naughty foods as much. (I miss cheesy fries and Ben & Jerry’s)

8.) My boobs are shrinking. (This totally sucks)

7.) I spend less time watching TV or on the computer. (Working out is total buzz kill.)

6.) Starbucks has lost major business from me. (Homemade Venti Iced coffee =’s max of 3 points)

5.) I always have to ask for a to-go box when I order my food. (There’s always so much.)

4.) Commercials don’t entice me to go out and buy the latest naughtiness.

3.) There are always dishes that need washing now. (Homemade meals mean pots and pans. GRRR!)

2.) I spend too much money @ the store. (Bottle water, fresh fruit & veggies are a drag.)

1.) My cravings are no longer chocolate based. (Pomegranates. Mhhhhmm so good.)

With swim class canceled me and a classmate went out to dinner. So I ate more than I should have and only did crunches during Castle. Tomorrow will be rough.

I Will Excercise Daily; Even If It Kills Me

Okay I am on day 4 of my personal goal of working out daily. I keep falling off the wagon and having to start over. *Groans.* This will happen . My first goal is to hit 14 days in a row without missing a day.


My current workout habits are walking and swimming. I hope to expand those into a more verity of exercises. I've already lost over 25 lbs. in the last 3 months and in 3 months from today I have a family wedding to go to and my goal is to loose another 20 lbs. by then.




It'll take everything I have to loose that weight by December, but I want to be another dress size smaller by then too. So to looking H.O.T. (Healthy, Outgoing & Toned) by the new year.

Becoming H.O.T. by December

Currently working on anagrams for H.O.T. Currently it's Healthy, Outgoing & Toned. I've been on Weight Watchers for about 4 months now and that was step 1 in me becoming healthier, I've also been working out off and on for the last couple months and I need to get  stricter on my workouts.  So I now am going to attempt to blog about my progress in hopes that will get me going more.

Lonely

Today as I was cleaning I got this feeling of absolute loneliness. I’ve gotta tell you it’s not fun.  I’m a self functioning girl who doesn’t like taking shit from others as you’ve probably noticed. But sometimes all I want is to cuddle up next to someone, wrap their arms around me and feel that sense of comfort and true belonging. Is that too much to ask for?


I feel like I’m asking for too much. I bend backwards when I see someone who fits into that category of  possibilities. I’m not perfect and I don’t expect perfection. I just know what I like and want.

Emilie Autumn - Liar

I just have this song in my head today.  It’s fitting for my mood.  Let me see your pain lover.
 

Rant 2; LIAR!!!

 

From Rat Bastard;  (P.S. He told me over a week ago he deleted his Facebook account)

I’m hoping you got my text about (my friends daughter) , because that is actually important. I’m back on Facebook. Did I read your rants? Yes; my promise to you expired when our communication suddenly halted. Do I have things I’d like to say in response? Yes. Will I say them? Only if you want me to. Will they make a difference? Not one bit. I’m sorry.

Okay so you are a freaking liar! Our communication suddenly halted. Yes! Why? Because YOU, not me, did not tell me the whole truth.  You could have told me there was a girl you liked. But no. Sunday night you were talking about a future involving me. Nothing major of course. But if you had an idea that you wanted to date her then you should have told me. My anger towards you does not involve me feeling

slighted in the emotional “Oh my god I wanted to date you, even though that’s where YOU were leading things.  I wasn’t ready to date you. I just wanted to fuck you. Sadly I still want to fuck you. This time however I won’t be your passive little Slave. This time I want to do it MY way. This time I want you bounded and gagged. Not that we did that with me.  Sunday you were talking about ‘Us’ Monday you suddenly went on a date with this girl leaving you exclusive. Balls!!! You had to know something before Monday! Me not replying or res……. (Just realized what he said.)

YOU RAT BASTARD! YOU TOLD ME YOU CANCELED YOU’RE FACEBOOK ACCOUNT. WHICH WOULD MEAN THAT YOU SHOULDN’T BE ABLE TO READ SAID NOTE. RAT BASTARD!!!!

Communications suddenly halted? That’s a fucking cop-out. You played me and then when you were done you decided to toss me aside. WHY SHOULD I TAKE IT? I shouldn’t. There forth I stopped talking to you.  Duh!!!

Mini Rant on Facebook from this morning. Only read the first bit at that point.

Hey rat bastard, you can’t do this. You can’t act like the good guy when you are an egocentric asshole. That’s why you’re trying to be the good guy, right? (By telling me about my friends daughter?) To get a thank you from me. Thanks, now fuck off.